un-

some things like happy moments, you just can’t forget. some things like stress, you just don’t want to think of. and on that note, i don’t want to think of it. hahaha.

i guess it’s unfair or simply sad that happy times aren’t remembered or celebrated because those times belong to the past already and are no longer the foundations of the future. but maybe it’s also just as sad to remember or be reminded. so today, i uncelebrate. let this be the first and last unniversary.

today, i just remembered, was lolo daddy’s birthday. it’s also the feast of the Black Nazarene. “Quiapo day.” some memories there, too. some not mine actually. something about memories. they are meant to be kept but not to hold us back. it crosssed my mind, and i am considerring it. a devotion could work for me. also, to carry on something done by devotees,—important men—who have passed away.

and speaking of memories, i can’t remember when i got that hg 1/100 wing zero custom special operation type. and the mg 1/100 wing gundam ver. ka. last friday, i bought the mg 1/100 deathscythe ew ver. they’re stacked now, unbuilt. as i told cara, i should have these, at least the 2 mg’s done by march. i think i already have a place for them and upcoming 3—where my desk fan is now. i think my wallet just got hurt.

my desk fan stopped working already. it needs a “jumpstart” for the fan to spin (slower than it’s been) and quits swiveling. it could have been because i tilted it downward and put it on steady last night(?). i have mama’s stand fan now. i think i’ll manage with a stand fan. i remember having a deskfan ever since.

last day of the Christmas season. tsk. not the best day for me. it’s actually on the lower end of good. what’s left to do? i know the answer, i just lack the action. but hey, at least knowing is a start right? move on to better tomorrows.