pain on my shoulders

that was one rough saturday. not the best. could have been much much better. but i had the bits of fun i wanted and didn’t expect.

gig last saturday was lame for our part. went great for the rest. got a good jam with tinola earlier after the cut-short jam at the balcony which proved to be gig-fatal. ah, yes. i see a redemption gig to be very crucial.

i’m having the long weekend. yey! at last. rest. although my shoulders still hurt from carrying my bass, netbook, bass effects, and work stuff around last saturday.

i’m back at the writing table. well, typing table. haha.

italian wine and cake

at nakalimutan ko na ang tawag sa merienda namin kanina, pa-bday ni danilo sa site.

nakakapagod ang linggong ito. may ilang malaking problema, mukhang nalunasan naman. hindi ko lang nabigyan ng oras ang maraming bagay. bukas, sabado, isang huling hirit bago magpasarap uli.

kapagod. kailangan kong magpraktis ngayon para sa gig bukas. parang kotr lang. walang ensayo. haha. pagalingan.

step 1

slept and ate today. worried a bit about work. well, it happens. not much preparations. not little, actually. haha. well, barney did 42km. tomorrow morning, i run. i have to go hear Mass after then get on with the band practice. and it’s gonna be one awesome weekend.

fried isaw night

sa wakas, nakakuha ako ng bakasyon. ang hindi lang ganoon kaganda, sana ang iba ko ring kasama, natatamasa nila.

hindi mabuti ang simula ng nagdaang dalawang araw. napakalaking pasasalamat ko sa Diyos, lumalabas, ok naman at hindi lang basta ok. trabaho, trabaho, trabaho. mukhang nasa tamang daan na kami para gumaan na ang buhay at trabaho.

mula lunes pala ako hindi nakapag-blog. ang naaalala ko, sasablay-sablay ako noong lunes at nagpaumaga na hanggang martes. miyerkules, ako yata ang huling umuwi. kahapon, nasa site coordination meeting buong araw, 7am hanggang 8pm. dumaan akong opisina at may nadatnang tirang handa. nakakabusog.

patext-text kay best, patext-text sa banda para sa praktis, pa-facebook-facebook pag-uwi, pa-email-email. oo nga pala, kailangan kong magreply ngayon sa email. pakonti-konting enjoy. pasingit-singit.

masarap na ngayong biyernes, nakatanggap ako ng  papuri mula sa boss ko. masabihan kang proud siya dahil bilib ang kiliyente sayo. bukod pa sa kahapon, pagpapakilala sa akin ni danilo ay isa sa pinakamahusay na nakilala niya. sana mapalabas ko rin ang husay ng mga kasama ko na para sa akin, sobrang karapat-dapat ng papuri.

nakahingi ako ng weekend pero magpapagod rin ako. ibang klaseng pagod. pagod sa pag-e-enjoy na hindi ko nagagawa sa trabaho. sana kayanin ng katawan ko.

salamat talaga sa Diyos sa lahat ng biyaya. isa sa pinakapanalo, may mga magulang akong sinusuportahan ako kahit hindi halata.

nakakahapo

it was already sunday, i think, when i went down to get some more left over pizza. 3 slices. turns out, i ate mama’s share. i have to get her pizza one of these days.

i woke up from an epic dream. not so much of an adventure, really. more like epic emotions. and a lot of running up and down stairs. and it felt like a prologue to an adventure.

if the adventure was the real world i woke up to, it wasn’t really much. another one of those bad sundays. lazy. tired. none of the work i intended to is done so far. i got to go to Mass at 6:30, again. but it gave a good feeling as always. and a challenge.

i hope i have the energy to do what i have to do. monday has got to go well.

i hope there would be reviews on the fx-8120 soon. i’m wanting to buy it so much and i need reviews to backup my presumption that for a little less than the i5 2500, it’s a good buy. well, reviews and availability.

availability’s an issue with stuff i want. and recommend. it’s great, although i wish i could have been there, that cara’s finally bought a new cpu, mobo, and ram. and a cool case. as recommended, she got herself an athlon ii x4 640 and a 880g-based ecs mobo. combined with her radeon hd 5770, that machine is gonna rock.  and 8gb ram. cool.

purchases. the xperia pro’s not yet available too. i hope i successfully pass on that. and not need it. jenny’s working now. i swithed the network to gsm only in the early afternoon. i hope it was just a screwup with smart’s network. i wasn’t able to send and receive text. the line was actually out even though the signal was up. i can’t even contact the phone via phonecall. and it’s getting slow. i really need to do the monthly backup thing.

above that, though, i need to do good. do good in stuff and do good things.

lamezy

ang sablay sa araw na ito ay hindi na naman mabuti ang gising ko at pumasok ako na halos walang napala sa tinagal ko sa opisina.

masaya naman dahil nakakain ako ng spaghetti. sa kabila ng nakakabagot at medyo nakakadismayang trabaho, nagtawanan kami nina cesar at arianne nung naghapunan kami.

hindi man kami nakagala ng best ko, medyo may buhay naman ang aming pagtetext. nakakatuwa na mas nagiging positive na siya. pangarap ko talagang maging masaya siyang tunay.

bukas, tila hindi ako makakatakbo. game. 16.8 km next week. laban! sabay sched pa ng praktis para sa OS X gig. sige lang.

getting good at goodbyes

many things in the office today. i woke up there for one. and it was arianne’s birthday, liza’s last day, and supposedly the submission for the ground floor ifc drawings. mixed emotions i’m not really good at thinking of and writing about.

spent the night there again. almost got there late yesterday and got there late by a minute today. to think i woke up there. well, i went home to sleep on my bed and do my morning stuff better. i feel kinda guilty that i can do this while my companions spend the straight hours until midday or even until the end of office hours. well, i hope they don’t take it badly.

i think the constant overnights at work are wearing me down but i really felt good with the improvements i’m seeing in the drawings mostly with ate karen’s help. it was also a wonderful feeling that i finally quite finished to a more precise and workable level the column tables i’ve wanted to do since may or june.

next up, safe. as much as i want things to go smoothly and precisely, there’s also that longing for glory. ah yes.

it’s already mid-october weekend. here’s the plan: this weekend, get a good chunk of work done on office projects. this coming week, get a good amount of cramming training. next weekend, show `em how to run. the week after that, get one or two awesome jam sessions with konata fans club. on the last weekend of august, get back on the stage.

there’s a diorama at gundamguy website. i thought of doing overtime on the holiday on the 31st to fix files at work. i hope there won’t be deadly deadlines then so i might dedicate that day instead to building mg deathscythe ew. that would be 2 years and 11 months after building hg deathscythe h custom. ah, time.

kahel at maliwanag

mabagal at hindi kabutihan ang umaga ko pagkagising. sayang, masarap pa naman ang tulog ko at hanggang sa gumising. medyo sumama lang talaga. pinasya kong hindi na muna pumasok noong umaga. marami-raming nangyari.

nagtext si hazel kung pwede kaming tumugtog sa x japan gig dahil may nag-backout. txt brigade taps ayun, game, nag-confirm kami. nakapag-agahan ako ng dalawang pandesal at tuna at pumasok bago mag-lunch break.

sinimulan kong problemahin ang mga dapat problemahin sa g/f hanggang 8/f. nagkainitan dahil hindi ko pwedeng iwanan yung ginagawa ko para sumama sa meeting. boss dan and jonas to the rescue. hindi rin ganoon karami ang napala ko. medyo distracted at nanghihina at dismayado sa konting napala namin sa nagdaang linggo. ayos lang, nakarami naman kasi ng pahinga.

nabaling din ang atensyon ko sa mga review ng amd fx. maraming hindi ok na review sa fx-8150. may isa o dalawang nagsabing mukhang ok ang fx-8120 para sa presyo niya. medyo sakto, yun ang balak kong bilhin. sana meron dito nung 95w na fx-8120.

matagal bago dumating si danilo sa opisina kaya mga 9 na ako nakaalis pagkatapos ng konting usap at pagpaplano. binigyan niya ako ng libro na iwan ko (sana naiwan ko lang at hindi nawala) sa mesa ko. mga kwento. ayos, mukhang mapapabasa na naman ako. baka makapagsulat uli.

nagtaxi ako papunta sa nbc tent para sa race kit. orange and singlet ko at halos wala nang freebies. oh well. last day at halos closing time na. hehe. nakakasindak ang race map lalo na kung ganun kalaki ang drawing.

naglakad ako sa ulan papuntang mcdo para kumain. tumawag ako sa nanay ko para sabihing doon na ako kakain kasi gutom na ako. madali akong nakakuha ng taxi pauwi at nakapagrosaryo naman pagdating.

maraming nangyari ah. nasa conference kami ngayon ni dogi. wala pa si thad. mamayang kaunti, may rereplyan akong email. ang bait ng Diyos. hindi kasing-bigat ng inasahan ko ang araw na ito. maliwanag nga kahit maulan.

unrun

it’s been 2 months and a half since i last ran and that was during the milo marathon. doing some makeshift scientific approach to how i’ll cram my training, i think i’ll be ok with 3 training sessions given i’ll do them with the same intensity as i did before.

tomorrow’s midweek and i’m getting worried about my progress for friday’s deadline. i think it’s also a wrong move to not let anyone else worry. i can’t be stock at being worried, though. mark tomorrow as a big day.

spent time doing email again earlier tonight after dinner. i did it using mama’s acer and on gmail’s user interface. not feeling it. ok, i’m a client application kind of person. cloud services are great but client software much better than web apps. just my opinion and preference.

i’m excited for tomorrow’s amd fx release. and i also have to finally get my adidas race kit. and finish a lot of things for friday’s deadline. i’ve been walking a bit to much with these past few days. i need to run.

lunes at mga poste

halos yung column tables ang inasikaso ko buong araw sa trabaho ngayon. na walang overtime. may sobra, pero hindi umabot sa overtime. oh yeah. madilim na nga lang nung umuwi ako kasi muntik na akong ma-late at malapit nang mag-disyembre, maaga na ang kagat ng dilim.

ang sayang gumamit ng macro at magplano kung paano ang paggawa sa cad. bukas, dapat todo trabaho at dapat malaki ang progress. siguro, sana, makakapag-training na rin ako pagkatapos ng trabaho. o mukhang kailangang unahin ang pag-claim ng singlet atbp.

nagawa ko, unang araw ng panatang magdasal ng rosaryo araw araw at yung prayer of commitment para sa one million rosaries a day for 200 days. dapat, parang ang mga ginagawa ko sa excel at ang inaasahan ko sa mga cad operator namin, dapat gawin ang lahat para maging maayos ang buhay at malinis ang kaluluwa. sablay din kasi ako madalas, e. dapat, dapat galingan ko lalo sa aspeto na to ng buhay ko.

showers before the storm

it rained quite heavy for a few minutes and intermitently during the day. lazy day, i got to zuma and plants vs zombies on my netbook and desktop under my steam account. i bout the two on december 31 and january 1. i intended to give them as gifts but i figured a steam account would be quite a bit for my father to handle without asking me a number of times and my best wouldn’t care much about paid casual pc games.

only time outside was for sunday Mass. i wore my new green shirt and black polo. the Gospel was about wearing the proper attire. ah, i gotta get the proper attire for my soul.

today i also came across some i’m a mac commercials and spoofs. and a monologue (i think it was a podcast) by the late steve jobs for which the one who posted it seemed to be against it. i’m quite against the poster’s opinion. with all these, i’m pretty much reaffirmed on my view of apple—in control. there’s a certain irony to steve job’s “think different” or maybe being in control is different.

eitherway, i’m still a pc person, but i’m tending for the controlled system in choosing an amd platform. ack. amd fx on wednesday. the anxiety of waiting. and as for cellphones, i’m still partial about going android. with venjo on blackberry, goey on android, and domeng on ios, i’m left with symbian or windows phone. nah. i’ll stick with my feature phone for a bit longer.

it’s fun to blog about these stuff (and get hooked to a casual game and some 3d racing) and not be stressed on office work.

meteor shower fail

gumising ako at maulan. hindi ako nakalabas ng bahay buong araw. chill na lang. maulan sa labas. at ayun, bam, tinamad. hindi ko na rin pinilit si best maglakwastsa para bonding sila si sean.

anong nagawa ko ngayon? naglipat, nagbura, at nag-backup ng mga files sa dalawang desktop. naglaro rin ng nfs world. nakakaaliw ang nadiskubre ko kagabing bangko sa nfs world—treasure hunt. pwede na rin. mas hindi frustrating kumpara sa mga multiplayer race na masyadong outclassed ang sasakyan ko. pero medyo matagal pa talaga bago ako makabili ng tier 2 na kotse. hindi na siguro porsche cayman s ang bibilhin ko pag pwede na. toyota supra na lang. mas sulit.

geek mode. haha. sa 12 inaasahang lumabas ang mga amd fx na cpu na matagal ko nang inaantabayanan at balak bilhin. sa 27, ilalabas ang mg sandrock na siyang hudyat ko para bilhin ang mg shenlong. sakto pa pareho sa sweldo. ewan lang natin kung may sapat na pera pambili.

yung cpu, kahit papaano, kung may pambili ako at mabili ko, ok na. tapos na ang problema. mas problema yung gundam na mas may pambili ako. mabibili ko naman malamang yung shenlong, pero pag binili ko na ang sandrock na naka-schedule bilhin pag in-announce ang heavy arms, matatambakan ako ng mga hindi pa gawang gundam. hmm… yung 360 modena kaya, kailan ko matatapos? at yung supra na bigay ni yonni, gusto ko nang buksan at simulan.

easy friday again at last

first friday of the month, i almost got late for work so i got to go home past 6. had quite a bit to do but it wasn’t a very busy day. it feels like a mellow interlude in a heavy song. well, a not so good song. haha.

i got to replace the pairs of pants i bought yesterday. good thing i hurried home. spaghetti. oh yeah.

dogi, venjo, and yaluts yesterday confirmed game at another attempt at a band reboot. i hope linette sends me a copy of her songs this weekend. i also hope to get my works done. next week, if all goes well, without overtime and stuff, i need that band practice. i need my music back.

and my stamina. i’ve been noticing i’ve been getting easily tired even just running up the stairs. 2 weeks to cram training. hahaha. call! i brought home my running shoes that i left at work (to no use) for some weeks. let’s see what will happen this weekend and these two weeks before adidas king of the road. i just remembered, i run to get somewhere.

mga trabaho

medyo nanghihina ako ngayong nagdaang araw. medyo panalo pa naman kagabi: wabi-sabi kasama nina iris at napnap tapos dinner pag-uwi kasama ang buong pamilya.

bago pumasok, nabalitaan ko sa radyo (oo, sa radyo, hindi sa internet) ang pagpanaw ni steve jobs. at oo, nakikidalamhati ako. siya ang nagpa-cool sa mga geek. good job.

parang ang dami kong ginawa at hindi nagawa sa trabaho ngayon. tila marami talagang kailangang gawin. haha. pero masarap din ang pakiramdam, nakakauwi nang maaga-aga. at walang nagbabadyang overtime sa sabado. sana makalabas kami ni best. kailangang mag-enjoy kami ngayong darating na weekend.

nakadaan ako kanina sa waltermart at marami-raming nabili. nakabili na rin ako sa wakas ng mga dvd-r. sampu. nakabili rin ako ng dalawang size 31 na c9 na slacks (itim at dark gray) na papapapalitan (wokey, napaisip ako kung tama yung salita) ko rin bukas ng size 30. nakabili na rin ako ng isa pang sports shirt, green t-shirt, at black polo. grand total: PHP2,049. oh yeah. starbucks. sana pwede ngang palitan yung mga pantalon. medyo masagwa yung luwag, e. medyo lang. at hindi ko kasi masusuot nang walang sinturon.

faraday na bukas. sana dalhin ni linette ang mga sinulat niyang kanta at sana maisipan at magawan ko agad ng tugtog. at syempre, sana magkaroon ng oras para makapag-jamming kami at makapag-gig. kailangan kong tumugtog uli sa stage.

lumabas ka sa silong

medyo matindi pala ang huling pagsugod. pero sa totoo lang, meron pang mga susunod. sige lang! laban lang. pero pahinga muna. masarap makalabas ng lupa. konti pa, iiwan na talaga namin ang ilalim ng lupa, ang mga silong at rampa.

pero pahinga muna. at ayoko nang magpaumaga hanggang maliwanag na maliwanag na sa labas. at abutan ng mga tao na hindi pa ako naliligo.

pero maganda ang umaga ko. masaya ring makalabas, kahit ministop lang ang pinuntahan.

got mail?

i think i’m having writer’s block. i also think not since i never achieved the writer status.

tough week last week. tough deadlines but i think we somehow got the message that we’re hard at work on the project. quality-wise, well, we’ll have to improve.

had another one of those half weekends and i’m sleepy now. netbook-desktop sync done. desktop backup and clear harddisk space done. i also did the supposed monthly backup of the acer laptop yesterday at work where i left it and will be lending it for a week. the downloaded aspire wallpapers look great.

this coming week, i’m looking forward to feel a certain amount of fulfillment again. ooh, and maybe an addtion to my routine. you’ve got mail?