g69 summer outing 2011

packing up, and almost ready to go. primary objective, have fun.

new light

mas maliwanag na ngayon sa kwarto ko. halos doble ang lakas ng ilaw. kung dati na sigurong ganito ang ilaw, mas maliwanag ang mga kuha kong retrato sa mga scale model at gitara ko. ewan ba. may pagkahumaling ako sa dim lighting dahil na rin sa aking migraine na madalas mangyari noong college. isa pa, ang pagtulog ko nang nakabukas ang ilaw. malamang ngayon, mas mapipilitan akong patayin ang ilaw bago matulog.

naaadik nga ako sa angry birds sa netbook ko at ngayon, dina-download ko na dito sa desktop. $4.99. pwede na.

nalutas ko na rin kagabi ang aking suliranin sa credit card. hindi marunong magbasa. credit pala, hindi ko pala kailangang bayaran. lumalabas, nadoble ko pa ang pondo ko sa account ko.

umuwi akong maaga-aga dahil hindi ko kaya sa trabaho. sabi ko nga, ang laki ng responsibility ko ay mas mataas sa level ng capability ko. nahihirapan ako at kinakabahan. kailangang mag-easy.

bumili ako ng siopao pauwi dahil sweldo kahapon at tila gutom ako. pero lagi naman akong gutom pag ganung oras. malamang mas maaga lang akong nagutom dahil chicken sandwich sa burger king lang ang kinain ko noong lunch kahit nakakabusog din naman iyon.

madali akong naengganyong kumain sa burger king (kahit ang kinahinatnan ay nag-takeout lang kam). ok din sa trip si ailene, large onion rings at maraming catsup.

isa siguro sa malaking pinroblema ko ngayong araw ay ang pera. sa totoo lang, may kawalan at kakulangan sa pag-asa sa paligid pagdating doon. matagal ko nang pinoproblema at hindi pa rin nalulutas. pero pag kausap ko si best, kahit may sarili akong problema, parang hindi ko masabi sa kanya. gusto kong ipakita sa kanya na hindi ako nawawalan ng pag-asa. at pati sa mga kalungkutan niya, hindi dapat mawala ang pag-asa ko na sasaya siya at sasaya rin ako balang araw. kapag nawala na ang pangangarap, mawawala na rin ang katuparan.

restart and repair

successfully fixed windows for the pentium d pc by installing the harddrives to this athlon ii x3 pc using disc wizard to restore an old backup.

with that done, this athlon ii x3 pc had some problems starting windows. restarts, settings, and the sign of the cross got it. amazing really.

paulit-ulit para masanay

kani-kanina lang, inulit-ulit ko ang salitang mais para hindi makalimutang kailangan kong ipasok sa ref ang mais pagbaba ko.

hindi ko nakain ang binili kong lunch dahil nagbayad ako sa metrobank para sa aking hsbc credit card. ang malungkot pa doon, late payment. hindi ko nagawa kahapon bago mag-12 ng tanghali.

hindi ako nakakain sa opisina dahil 1pm ang meeting sa shangri-la site. sakto, pagdating dun, on-time, mayroong may kaarawan at may pakain. kaya pala inusog nang 1 ang meeting.

umabot ng halos ika-6 na ng gabi ang meeting. mahaba pero hindi nakaka-stress. pauwi galing sa opisina, bumili muna ako ng 2 order ng takoyaki, kumain ng 2 isaw, at nag-uwi ng 2 tokneneng. pag-uwi, pinatikim ko kay mama at kay papa ang takoyaki. ayos lang daw.

mahina-hinahon ang araw na ito. salamat po. bukas, malamang level up ang challenges pero dapat, level up din ako. pero bukas na yun. sa ngayon, angry birds muna. haha. baka bukas o sa makalawa, bilhin ko. ok din yung 24hr trial period ng intel appup. napapagastos ako. credit card. $4.99? ok na siguro. haha.

alternatives

sinimulan ko halos ang araw kanina sa pag-eehersisyo. nakakapagod. masarap. sana epektibo. sumakto at nabasa ko sa yahoo ang ilang paraan ng paghubog ng katawan na tingin ko, kaya ko namang ipasok sa oras (at disiplina) ko. haha. kailangang magawa nang tama.

maraming problema ang ibang tao at kung gaano dinala ng Diyos ang problema ng tao noon, kahit kaunti sana, nais kong magaya iyon. pero mahirap. at sa totoo lang, kanina, iniisip ko kung gaano nga ba ako nakakatulong, kung tama ba ang paraan ko ng pagtulong, o kung may mas maganda bang paraan ng pagtulong. sana masagot na. mahirap ito.

magaang magulo ang trabaho ko. kinakabahan ako. hindi ako sigurado sa mga ginagawa at kailangan kong gawin. good luck. sabi nga namin ng best ko, kaya ito!

mayoon akong nabalitaang maganda, isang kaibigang natanggap sa gusto niyang kumpanya. napapaisip ako at napapatanong kung ano ba ang career path ko. ang sagot ko, hindi pa ako kuntento sa mga narating ko. hindi ko pa naaabot ang mga inaasahan ko sa sarili ko. darating din tayo dun. dapat. pansamantala, level up muna. parang sa nfs lang yan. haha.

angel

you know how good God is? i experienced a miracle today. the miracle of receiving forgiveness and more wonderful than that, forgiving.

i didn’t expect a reply. i guess i gotta hand it to God. i sent the email last wednesday. i received the reply this afternoon. i was actually sleeping. before having email was downloaded here to my netbook, i saw the headers on my phone. and there, that good feeling came. plus the background music in my head.

thank you God. Happy Easter. one of the 3 happiest days of the year – check.

black saturday morning

we have this perspective that good friday is supposed to be a sad celebration. but it actually feels good. for one, it should be a thankful day. yes, we commemorate Christ’s suffering and death but it should not end there. afterall, salvation began then.

after the 3pm veneration, as james son of zebedee, I attended the procession. about 3 and a half hours of good friday practices, not bad. on thing I missed yesterday and throughout the lenten season actually was the way of the cross.

day of fasting and abstinence, I slept before 9pm. and today, black saturday, I’m not quite sure what to do with my time. maybe rest and relax a bit. of course, I should give time for prayer today. tomorrow, it’s gonna be a grand day. ah, yes, I remembered, the 3 happiest days in a year includes tomorrow.

hugas-paa

may hindi ako mapaliwanag na pakiramdam na hinugasan ang aking paa kanina. iniisip ko, paano ko huhugasan ang paa ng iba? iyon ang tanong ngayong araw na ito. kailangang sagutin balang-araw.

full day

well, not quite the best half-day work day, but I felt real good outside work.

my best and I have been texting today about some things and it kinda makes me feel good. I’m hoping the not so good will be kept away so the really good things will indeed come to her.

had fully loaded double down for lunch and went home to rest a bit from the impact of the meal. after a while, I went off to greenbelt then landmark.

I finally got a pair of sandals for tomorrow and I might use these for hiking. I’m getting fond of these sandugo sandals. they look and feel good and didn’t hurt my wallet.

I also managed to buy that rosary bracelet I promised. next thing to do, give it.

I meant to go to confession at greenbelt but since there were too many people. I accompanied my father and had confession here at the parish tonight. feels good.

I bought some pink popcorn on the way home but it was sweet. I don’t like sweet popcorn. good thing my mother likes it. well, maybe quite. I’m having a skyflakes+cheez whiz snack now to end the day with a good taste in my mouth.

7 hours

hindi ko alam kung 7 o 8 nga. pero nakatulog ako nang ganun katagal sa sala. hindi na ako nakakain ng hapunan o baka pwedeng yung kinain ko sa mcdo na ang hapunan ko. pero syempre, kulang yun. ibang klaseng pagod. pero baka hindi lang talaga ako napigilan sa pagtulog.

ngayon, medyo nagrereklamo na ang sikmura. marami akong dapat gawin sa loob at labas ng trabaho mamaya. kung tutuusin, sana pala kahapon ko na lang inasikaso. hindi ko alam ano yung mismong nakapag-alis ng mga bagay na yun sa isip ko. focused and steady dapat. noted. sige, yun ang isa pang dapat baguhin.

69 wins, 96 losses

nakakatawa, ang loser, buhay sa game ang kinekwento kanina. level 15 sa nfs world at nakakuha ng special performance upgrade part.

moving on, medyo magaan ang trabaho kanina pero tila kulang pa rin ang napala. ang maganda, may napala naman. medyo nakapag-trip din bilang panandaliang kapalit sa lugar ni ma’am belle sa 2nd floor.

pero pakiramdam ko, natatalo ako sa isang laban sa buhay. sana, sana lang talaga, matupad yung pangarap ko. hindi ko kasi mahawakan, e. hindi nga ako makapunta sa gusto kong puntahan. ngayon, siguro dala rin ng kape, kinakabahan ako. iniisip ko na lang, bago umuwi, naipagdasal ko naman.

masarap dumaan sa adoration chapel. syepmpre, alam ko yung tungkol sa dasal na hindi naman nangangahulugang hiningi mo, ibibigay sayo. mas pipiliin pa rin kung ano ang mas makabubuti sayo. pero hindi sa kung masasagot o hindi ang dasal, yung mismong pagdulog lang sa Nakatataas, masarap na rin. mapalad ang mga nananampalataya.

sa 69 na panalo at 96 na talo, kung tutuusin, mas may halaga ang 69 kaya ok talaga yun.

palms

I’ve been not so up the whole day. not so holy welcome to the holy week. 12 hours “late” for Mass. oh, I dunno what’s up with that but there was a 550 spyder parked at the chuch patio.

anyways, I’ve been having issues in my head about how my best friend is doing. It’s been quite a week now since. and I guess it hasn’t changed, how I feel, that my best should be the happiest friend I have and I have to make sure of it.

maybe the saddest part this past week is when I lost a friend. not so close but still, a friend. from what I got, she wanted her life lost and she granted that wish hersef. sad. I sure wish no one would ever do that again especially those dear to me.

for a very very very long time, I will remember how I felt today that fear of how true evil is. I didn’t witness anything but the fear in me was already that much. recently, I came across that article about an exorcist priest and his duties. it’s been planted in my mind since, and I wish I could say it more to remind people, that as much as we believe in the goodness of God, we should also be cautious of the evil enemy.

this coming week, we will be remembering how Jesus died and rised again. I should do some raising myself. I should keep my hope and faith up.

aim

i missed out on all that i planned to do today. i have to figure out how to get rid of that habit.

i wanted to see shooting stars but i know wishes are granted not by those. maybe just the sight of something that beautiful adds to bringing hope that prayers are answered.

i watched the first two episodes of season 5 of how i met your mother. good laughs. i think i started watching that  show when i started feeling down late last year. recently, i’ve been avoiding feeling down. i hope i’ll be successful at that.

spent a good time of the late morning and early afternoon texting. maybe it compensated for me not getting to go out today. i guess i didn’t get to go out on the third consecutive saturday. oh well. tomorrow’s Palm Sunday then Holy Week. gotta make the following days good.

sidekicks

kailangan kong itapon ang lalagyan ng greenwich sidekicks sa tabi ng computer.

tapos na ang work week na bitin sa mga natupad na tungkulin. sa makalawa, Linggo ng Palaspas na. hindi ko alam, medyo bitin din ako sa lenten season ko ngayon. sana makabawi sa darating na linggo.

kami lang ni papa dito sa bahay ngayon dahil nasa retreat si mama. ayun, pareho kaming nakaharap sa pc. ganito na nag-evolve ang household. oh well. buti medyo napapatambay pa rin ako sa baba pagkabihis pagdating ng bahay.

this week, dahil may mga bagong tao sa opisina, medyo nagkakaroon na rin ng bagong interaction. yun lang, may nawala, pero pagbabago rin yun.

inusog ko na rin mula sa ilalim ng mesa papunta sa ilalim ng upuan ang ibox. ayos pala. mas hindi sagabal. mas pwedeng umupo nang maayos. 2 linggo bago ang outing namin nina venjo at 3 bago ang outing sa office, may mga kailangang paghandaan. kailagan kong maglinis. labas at loob.

full tank

I was a bit surprised by how much we were eating for dinner tonight. I had rice, porkchop, and part servings of greenwich chicken, baked mac, and lasagna (c/o eastwest bank credit card it think). I had two packs of skyflakes with cheez whiz when I got home and had some of that greenwich fries. I have big tummy now.

I’m having a slight asthma attack if I may call it such, though. I don’t know where it’s coming from. maybe I am actually stressed at work. I really don’t know.

workload today wasn’t so heavy. I even had time to exchange personal emails. funny thing about it is how I had another chance to express what I believe about love, how it should be. haha.

I gotta shape up for the world ahead of me. just now, I’m feeling I should be preparing for something great.

trial

ganda ng graphics ng nfs hot pursuit. tsaka sarap ng arcade feel. medyo dragging lang yung simula at linear. actually, hindi naman masama yung pagiging linear. mas gusto ko nga yun. walang sayang na oras sa pag-iisip. iniisip ko kung ganito yung experience dati sa nfs hot pursuit 2. anyways, baka medyo dragged ako ngayon kasi hindi pa ganoon ka-exciting yung races at kulang nung online experience. ok nga yung feel ng inu-update mo yung stats mo online. baka sa june, bilhin ko ito. sana meron pa sa datablitz by then.

hindi ko alam gaano kataas ang level ng nagawa ko sa trabaho kaninang halfday. natawa lang ako at iniwan ko ang gamit ko para makauwi nang maaga. naglakad ako pauwi, nag-isaw, at bumili ng action base para sa hg wing 0 custom ko.

masarap umuwi nang maaga. may oras sa sarili at sa pamilya. medyo kahit bitin yung sa pamilya dahil halos nasa kwarto lang din, baka pwedeng mag-improve sa part na yun. tama. masyado akong nahaharap sa pc, nasisira yung posture ko.

busted

not the best move. stayed up 4 hours after I intended to sleep, missed 4 hours of work. bad cause, bad effect.

I have the rest of the day to make good.

level up lang

sa nfs world, mukhang nagagamay ko na ang pag-level up. sa rate ko ngayon, baka tatlo o apat na buwan, nasa level 50 na ako. medyo pinlano ko na rin kung kailan at anong kotse ang bibilhin ko sa game.

sa totoong buhay, sa trabaho, tila wala masyadong level up. sana lang, hindi mag-level down. masarap ma-distract paminsan, pero sa loob ng isang taon, sana on track na ako sa pagbabago sa aking buhay. tama. dapat marami akong matapos at masimulan ngayong taong ito.

another easy monday

and it’s scary. and I’m sleepy already and it’s not even 9pm. maybe I’ll sleep early tonight.

still pondering on leaving the pc downloading while I sleep or not. maybe not. it adds “excitement” to the download process, although I really can’t spell out how and if that does much good.

long, temporary

panhinga na naman ngayong linggo. wala masyadong nagawa kundi maglaro. pero ito nga naman isa sa mga bago sa buhay ko, bagong videocard.

pinalitan ko muna pansamantala ang layout ng Pangalawa. di ko alam kung kailan, pero gusto kong palitan ito. o pwedeng masanay na rin ako dito.

maganda ang napulot ko sa Misa kanina. hindi nga naman basta-basta sumasagot ng oo ang Diyos sa ating mga hinihingi. pinipili niya muna kung ano ang mas makabubuti sa atin.

car show day

at home, need for speed. outside trip for today, car show. quite disappointingly long and tiring but at least I had fun outside again today.

I almost didn’t make it for the meeting at the parish. I actually only made it before bro. manny and the other person left. as for the meeting itself with the rest of the apostles, well, missed it. basically, we’ll meet again next week and practice will be on Maundy Thursday morning.

dinner alone at jollibee was..I have no adjectives. but tonight was quite sad because we are wanting to be happy. but like I say, we’ll get there. yes, we will. maybe I need a car?

high-rise submerged day

unang trabaho kaninang umaga, meeting sa shangri-la fort site. maraming notes, tila mas maraming kailangang gawin. nananghalian sa tokyo tokyo at medyo nahirapan sa chopsticks.

pagbalik sa opisina, nakipag-away (o mas tama atang sabihing inaway) sa telepono. sige lang. nakakahingal lang kasi kinailangang tumakbo. pagkatapos, tila manhid na ako. di ko alam kung gaano kabuti o kasama iyon.

nagmadali ako papuntang mrt-ayala para sa transaksyon. pinawisan ako sa paglalakad nang malayo. pagod dapat ako pero excited. matapos ang paghihintay, sa wakas, nabili ko na ang hd6950 1gb.

pag-uwi, hindi pa ako nakakapagbihis, niretratuhan at sinubukan ko nang ikabit ang upgrade sa pc. medyo gutom lang. pagkakain, sa nasimulan ko nang tamasahin ang 60fps.

piyaya

last night, I fell asleep on my work clothes. before that, had dinner at mcdo sm makati with kuya beboy. earlier, I got a suspenseful text from my best. even earlier, I didn’t do much at the office coming back from site meeting. it was pretty stressful and there seemed to be a lot of problems. although there weren’t that much, really, it’s just that there isn’t enough time. I got up and took a taxi to our meet-up place before the meeting and we arrived just in time.

today, I wasn’t able to do any work at home upon waking up as I intended. because I fell asleep early last night, I left the office pc powered on and idle for 8 1/2 hours (no) thanks to the effective scheduled powering on that I set. I also wasn’t able to do anything for today’s submissions leaving for work. dian and I took the same jeep although she got in at waltermart and I was on the front seat and she was at the back. we arrived at work a few minutes before getting late.

the morning was spent solving problems and encountering a bit. it’s a happy thing there were more positive results this time. just before lunch, the pans of lasagna were picked up and delivered by my loving parents. my goodbye gift to chal tasted good.

after lunch, on the way to the meeting, I was feeling tired to be tense. meeting went quite well and so were the discussions for the query responses.

I returned to the office, got there at around 715, to get the trays. spent some slack time (well, I’m not charging overtime) while almost everyone in the team had dinner. I’ve made an arrangement to purchase the hd6950 1gb tomorrow.

on the way home, I noticed the construction of an elevated pedestrian crossing (not so) close to the one I’ve been crossing everyday. it’s likely to avoid the last skyway on-ramp post. maybe they’re opening the intersection again for left turns to don bosco st.

my mother and I checked the construction out a while after I got home. dinner, prayer, and I got o.c. with the (expensive 85-peso) pick holder I got last night. I put the old one from E to G and put the new one on E. and there, back in front of the pc.

I never noticed a lot could happen in two days or maybe it’s just now.

shears

my head is about to explode with this problem and a single clue that it could be solved by the shear-friction theory.

deadline: before I sleep.

challenge accepted!

mabilisang monday

ilang project ang pinagsasalit-salit ko kanina. nakakahilo. may hindi ako naasikaso.

ngayong gabi, napaisip tuloy ako, ano ba yung factors kaya bumibilis ang oras? kailangang malaman at masabayan kung hindi kayang kontrahin. hahaha.

pag-uwi, dinatnan ko si tito rey na sumaglit. pinaayos ko na rin yung dalawa kong spare na keyboard. haha. “spare.”

binalik ko ang drive v at x at ang mga laman ng mga ito sa x3-pc (binackup at inalis ko ang mga drive kaninang umaga via remote desktop). tsaka ko na ibabalik sa pagiging basic disk ang pagiging dynamic disk nito. medyo nasayang lang yung kuryente kanina. ayun, charge to experience.

katatapos ko lang medyo panoorin ang dvd ng kasal nina ate at buds. nakinood din si mama dito sandali pero di na rin niya tinapos. pa-skip-skip din naman kami.

nabibilisan at nabibitin talaga ako sa mga pangyayari sa araw-araw. pero sobrang nagpapasalamat ako at buhay ako. ngayon, kailangang sulitin ang buhay pero tila nahihirapan ako dun. may Bible passage dito, dun sa regalo ni dian nung Pasko, “THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD… I shall not want…” tama. simulan natin doon. tama. sakto, nasa Gospel reading yun kahapon. medyo gets ko na kailangan kong gawin. sana, maalala ko lagi.

Doon lang ituon ang pansin, yung ibang bagay, susunod na lang. mas hindi magiging problema ang ibang bagay. mas may direksyon ka kasi at mas alam kung ano ang mas mahalaga kaya yung ibang bagay, madaling mahahawakan.

pagod akong dumating ng bahay kanina. nag-toss coin ako, magandang araw o hindi? heads, oo. heads.

renew weekend

I had 3 stallions last night and quite a struggle. I don’t know if the lack of pulutan made the difference but I guess I can’t drink as heavily as before. most of the fun last night was with arun’s company. spent a lot of time texting, too. got home at around 1 or 2 am. didn’t bother to change my clothes.

kuya beboy’s in town. maybe we’ll meet on time after work. he asked if we could meet up today but I was tired. I really didn’t do much today as I had to sleep. haha. not in gimik shape. although I did sleep a lot after night outs before. nothing new.

weekend is almost over. had fun. I hope the following weekends could offer more. I could get used to this more than stressed weekends for the past months.

I should renew myself, especially this lenten season.

saglit lang

ack. too much not good sleep. band practice done just now. will get some drive later.

to think i had a headache

sarap. nakagimik na rin uli sa wakas kahit medyo bitin. buti rin at hindi nakasagabal ang sakit ng ulo kahit hindi talaga nawala. at nagawa ko nang hindi kumakain ng karne.

magkikita uli kami ni raizyl. lalabas uli kami nina krys, chal, pao, celle, at ian. things to look forward to. sabi sa rango kanina, malaking bagay ang may pinaniniwalaan. tama, nakakatulong ang may inaasahan.